God!! I'm guilty...

arghh..seems i end up my day with a really damn hell situation..i didnt notice that i still had a patient..and she or he probably i didnt know is still on the table..with a bloody hell infiltrated..
how i didnt check each rooms before im leaving as i should do as my routine before..mayb im too tired or rushing home.. and the worst part is my head nurse calling me through hp and my colleague is stucked with that patient who's suppost to be mine..oh God..how guilty am i..what did im thinking in my bloody hell brain..mayb cause of no TECH is calling from the other rooms instead of HD,and i saw the cleaner was moping SIEMENS,thats make me taught that rooms is not working..and i doesnt know that rooms will give me hard time..
arghh..how can i facing with them tomorrow, and show my stupid and careless face..i dont know what are they thinking bout me at this moment, but this stupid mistake really give me a big impact on my profession and work ethics..how careless am i..and mayb im putting myself too much thinking bout my wedding preparations untill i did this bull shit mistake..oh god..can i switch off my wedding wires inside my brain and get focus back into my jobs?.can i??please,for a God sake,do it for ur own good and shut it out the rest bloody non important things for a while(im motivated myself..dunt bother)

GOD,IM TIRED!

2day, im damn tired.cerebral embolization took about 6 hours to complete the procedure.and that mama will have a very expensive brain.mana taknye,coiling untuk aneurysm je da dekat SR50K,stenting 3,each SR18K..hehehe..n aku da nak pitam pakai lead gown dalam tu..balik penat2, aku terus masak n on9 ngan hubby b4 mandi, iron baju n makan.

esok OT lagi, lusa hari cuti tapi aku OT lagi..memang penat gile..OT aku memang mahal..sejam je da SR60.71,so 6 jam setiap kali OT da SR360++ sebulan OT 8 kali dapat la dekat 3k..takde la penat sangat OT, tapi if keja penat pagi tu,memang nak jalan balik pun x bole da..

now aku worried pasal cuti aku.aku da mintak comptime rabu, n tiket pon da beli..if head nurse aku x approve mati la..yang aku bengang aku da apply since jun,tapi new staffs banyak yang dapat balik awal..bengang gile..da la nanti aku keje kat angio,camne die nak release aku..aku tunggu die balik dari Egypt,aku nak tanya..aku x kira..dah la nak cuti lama2 kne reject,tiket plak da beli..pening aku..baik aku tdo,ni pon da fenin2..penat gile..

MIGRAIN

2day aku offer myself working in Room 1,suppost Room 3..tapi aku nak blaja handle major cases.Sementara Dr Shammari xde bole la blaja..nanti org tua tu da balik dr vacation,gabra la..perit telinga asik dengar die jerit 'shit,shit,shit' during procedure..and kitorang ni habis kelam kabut bile die jerit..'ya la, bring..bring..bring the patient'..pening dengar..

so,td my radiologist order sedation fof patient,n the patient still in pain.so, die cakap la 'more fen'..aku ni ye2 je dengar die nak morphine..heran gak aku nape nak morphine..aku pon amik la fentanyl je..aku cakap kat die 'sorry Dr,mafi morphine,but i just standby u fentanyl,in case u need it'..Dr tu ape lagi panadang la aku smcm..rupenye die cakap 'more fentanyl'..ceh, naseb aku x amik morphine..cakap tu biar habis..abbreviation x betol langsung..

sudahnye,pastu aku migrain..macam nk pecah otak aku..penat gile..1 kes je da took about 2-3 hours..ngn GA cases lagi..transfer ke ICU plak tu..keje kat interventional angio radiology ni memang penat..nak kne pakai lead gown lagi..asik expose kat radiation je..mn x migrain aku..

balik uma,try on9 ngan sayang..hotel sayang ade wifi, tapi line hampeh..skjp ade, skjp xdok..lagi la tambah stress n migrain aku..tp sempat la cakap jap..hilang la rindu aku..sayang pon asik outstation je skang..hopefully time aku balik nnt, die ade la ms nak spend ngn aku..da la jupe 6 bulan skali je, mn x rindu gile..hmm, aku nak tido la..malas nak makan..xlarat..nnt aku update lg blog if ade cite best..